Kenny LaRose December 11th, 2009

Since getting "saved" in 1971, married, kids, being a missionary in El Salvador in '74-'75, my wife dying there, coming back to the USA, pastoring a few churches, getting married again and divorced-at, twice, drinking 100's of gallons of vodka, it being easier than preaching, for me, Then in a Re-hab in '05, telling God I was divorcing Him and not gonna believe in Him anymore. Then, upon waking up the next morning anyway after I had asked the God I had dismissed to make it so that I wouldn't….but not let it hurt,……I woke up to a brand-new me.

Since that morning in July, 2005 in Auburn, Maine I've had to work very hard to have even one bad day. My kids are closer to me than ever before or that I could imagine.

I'm enrolled in college (I'm 58!) and will be eventually licensed to counsel people like I used to be.

It's like I can't be bad enough to make God mad at me. So I'm good, but I think only because it's easier. I just love Jesus, so much that saying it embarasses me because it's not enough, and I didn't do it myself. He did it to me.

Not only that, but I'm sitting at a computer right now and just finished listening to Steve Brown (one of my best friends, but doesn't know it) and David Crowder talking about the the way things REALLY are, and that it's O.K. that they are, and in fact it's glorious that anything is as good or even as bad as it is..

I love Key Life and Steve Brown, and I talk out-loud to the computer or radio when he talks and say over and over, things like…"Yes! yes!…That's right!!! Yes! I think I always knew that about God, but I just didn't know I knew it!"

And so, in closing, I would like to say, hanging out with Steve Brown on the computer like tonight and hanging out with my kids, who by the way helped save my life,…these make me a better person a little more each day. Usually, and this is the truth, I feel like Ebenezer Scrooge on Christmas morning!! Then I think, "hey, wait a minute, I'm supposed to say it like this…'that's what Jesus does for me'." But then I seem to hear Jesus say in my heart, "Kenny, don't start getting religious with me now, these relatives and friends of ours need the work, so I use them in your life. It's good for them, too, y'know. I'm Jesus, and this is how I like to do it, so just enjoy it."

And so,….I do. And at times I think I may just be the happiest man on the earth. But I had to almost die to to get here.

Here's a quote for you (because I know my letter isn't long enough yet) !!!! "In the middle of the journey of my life,
I found myself in a dark wood; for I had
left the right path…

Eventually, I would find the right path
again, but in a most unlikely place."
…Dante, I think.

If you want to hear from me more, put me on staff there and pay me and I'll love you even more. Just kidding, but I really would like to get to Florida some time to see you, and it's not just a wish, it's a strong passion. Thank you for your words. They too are part of the saving of my life. I'm not flattering, I'm just not. That's too easy. I'm telling you the truth.