A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 7 - Burning

Sharon August 18th, 2008

If you're just joining me and my story, here are chapters one, two, three, four, five and six of A Doxology in Darkness.

This will be the last online installment. If you would like to read the entire printed version of the book, email erik@keylife.org and he will make sure you know when it's available.

Three days later, I was suddenly plunged back into deep introspection when my daily devotional said:

“…If a grey day is not one of thankfulness, the lesson has to be repea … (Read More)

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A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 6 - Starving

Sharon July 25th, 2008

If you're just joining me and my story, here are chapters one, two, three, four and five of A Doxology in Darkness.

After this startling awakening, I began to recall various singles groups I had attended in my life. A couple had been great: healthy people, truly there with no agenda but to meet with others in their same social bracket, which was single. These people were not there to find their mate necessarily, but really just to make friends and interact. For these people, if it just … (Read More)

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A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 5 - Needing

Sharon July 16th, 2008

The next catastrophic blow to my belief system arrived on January 19th.

Oddly, for such a life-altering epiphany, it padded in on unspeakably soft feet. In fact, had the Holy Spirit not taken it upon Himself to underline it quietly, I may very well have overlooked it entirely.

Once again missing Tom terribly, searching frantically for an escape from the pain, I cried out to Him, asking if there was any way Tom and I would ever be reunited.

“Lord, is it ever fixable?”

Once again, in His qu … (Read More)

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A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 4 - Unearthing

Sharon July 10th, 2008

I started seeing Ruth as soon as our busy schedules would allow. I truly had no idea what to expect from our time together, but I didn’t really care that much. I just needed to feel some relief, no matter what shape that relief may take.

I could never have predicted the life-changing healing I would come to experience.

Funny how we often look back on dramatic periods of time, and cannot for the life of us imagine what we were feeling just moments before the big event. It is as though the hug … (Read More)

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A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 3 - Groping

Sharon July 2nd, 2008

As the end of November approached, I was becoming frustrated by my deepening depression. I felt so weak and helpless. My embarrassment at my inability to get a hold of myself was eating me up inside. Pride has always been one of my biggest struggles, so of course I want to be perceived as strong, and “together.” I didn’t want myself or anyone else to recognize just how quickly I was drowning.

And so it was that I came to find myself driving down the road that night, screaming at God that … (Read More)

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A Doxology in Darkness - Chapter 2 - Fasting

Sharon June 26th, 2008

Immediately following the breakup, I went into a tailspin. I was a veritable mess.

Averaging about two to three hours of sleep per night, my skin became sallow, and my eyes were ringed by dark circles. I could barely swallow any solid food, so was relegated to protein shakes, and very simple things. Consequently, my five foot three inch frame whittled down from 110 pounds, to 97 pounds in a matter of about two weeks. I looked horrid: older, drawn and beaten down.

Heartbreak. Such a classic th … (Read More)

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